Blah Blah Blah – some total random-ness

So I was sick again yesterday… this time, I am pretty sure it was pregnancy sickness. But oh, how it is beats me down!

Everything triggers my gag reflex! brushing my teeth, fixing lunch (yesterday’s lunch resulted in me actually having a follow-through on the gag… if you catch my drift; sorry, don’t want to get too icky graphic…)

This morning I went to Sears with the gift cards I won from Design Mom. Two words: HUGE SALES!!! I love Land’s End, which they now own, but additionally, they carry a Liz Claiborne label. And I got me some super cute tops for $3.99!! I know, I am pregnant and will have limited wear from them this year. But I WON’T (Lord willing) be pregnant next year.

Despite the quilting aversion that resulted after my second pregnancy, I started a new quilt the other day. Hopefully, I will not end up once again associating quilting with being sick. The colors are bright shades of green, pink, red and orange and I’m using a modified rail-fence pattern.

I am now trying to locate a darning foot for my sewing machine so that I can quilt it in a free-motion style. My machine is a Kenmore and when I was at Sears I was hoping to purchase one. However, they only had their presser feet in sets. So instead of just purchasing a darning foot, I would have had to purchase 3 others that I already have.

Aren’t you thrilled to know all of this!? The random-ness of my brain never ceases to amaze me… Stop back by tomorrow when I talk about the dust bunny family in my kitchen.

Ad Nauseum

When I was pregnant with my second child I experienced AWFUL sickness. I usually get sinus congestion during the pregnancies, but this was just plain AWFUL. Nausea, headaches, exhaustion, NAUSEA… and there was no relief. It went on ALL.OF.THE.TIME for the first 3 months.

While I was experiencing the “joys” of early pregnancy, I was visiting family for a vacation. Just me and Sweetums back east for some “fun and relaxation”.

HA!

My vacation that year consisted of me begging my daughter off onto my brothers, sisters-in-law, my mom, my dad, the people next door…anyone – just so that I could lay on the bed and moan for the day.

While on this trip, I had visited Ollie’s, a CHEAP and WONDERFUL place that I can spend $30.00 and leave with a shelf-load of new books (which, I had done…)

Also, on this trip, I was finishing a quilt for Sean’s cousin who was getting married. I had optimistically thought I could finish it while “on vacation” before heading up to the wedding. Obviously I hadn’t factored in the need for laying on a bed moaning for the day.

So, the two big things I did (when I wasn’t laying on the bed moaning) were: read my books from Ollie’s and quilted.

The two things I could NOT DO for A LOOOOOOOONG time after that vacation were: read my books from Ollie’s and quilting.

WHY? Well, Ollie’s uses fluorescent orange stickers for their price stickers. IF I wanted to read one of those books over the next year, EVERY piece of that sticker (gummy residue included) had to be GONE from that book. Otherwise, I got nauseous.

If I even LOOKED at my quilting bin over the next year, I got nauseous.

My brain, in it’s sick and twisted way, had chosen to associate those two things with being nauseous. In my brain’s mind (;-), since I had done those while sick it equalled nausea.

Books from Ollie’s and quilting = sick to my stomach.

Fortunately, that passed. But all of those stickers had long been pulled off those books before it did.

This time around my brain is associating the computer with being nauseous. One day, right after I found out I was expecting again, I spent most of the day reworking my website. I was on the computer for most of the day. I was also nauseous all day.

So again, in my brain’s sick twisted mind: computer = nausea.

So please bear with me as I get back in the swing of visiting and posting. I really don’t want to have to get a laptop to keep in the bathroom or by the bed as I lay around moaning all day.

Blessings,
Karla

Courage, and some big news

The Lord’s timing always amazes me. And lots of times His timing shows me His sense of humor.

Those of you participating in the bible study, please accept my apologies for not writing my post on Monday’s chapter. I was experiencing my own hands-on lesson in courage.

There are a couple of fears that I struggle with. Some would seem silly — like the fact that my panic attacks are usually triggered by a fear of throwing up (lovely, I know…) I’ve always been a bit, um, dramatic, when I am sick to my stomach. One of my proudest moments as an independent college student was when I was sick and vomiting while away from home and actually survived!

Pitiful? yes…

My other fear tends to be not having enough money to get by. While I’ve learned a lot about God’s provision and grown in this area, I still find myself worried off and on.

What does this have to do with the Lord’s timing? And what does that have to do with courage?

Well, I’m pregnant. With child #4…

My heart races just writing that. Four seems so…. HUGE!!!

We are thrilled, we are excited, we are blessed.

But one of my initial reactions was fear. Fear that now we’d never get out of debt. Fear that we’d be stuck in an apartment with 4 kids, for the rest of their days at home. Fear that I’d have to wait tables for good, just to afford diapers.

But then I stopped and thought about this blessing the Lord has given to us. This child, that we offered up to Him from the time we were first married. He has chosen us to parent this child. He knows us. He knows our hearts. He knows what we need in order to properly raise this child. He knows all of that. And He still chose us.

It doesn’t make sense to me. From the world’s view, we are crazy; we are over-populating the earth. And we are one more family who doesn’t have a trillion dollars set aside to raise their child.

But God’s way doesn’t always make sense. That is where faith comes in to play.

Because I have faith that the Lord will provide for us and for this child. I have faith that He chose us for a reason. I have faith that He timed this for what is a seemingly CRAZY time to be expecting again, for a reason.

The passage from this first week of study, is a wonderful reminder of the Lord’s promises to us. And it also reminds me of the fact that as long as I am on this earth, in this body, I am not guaranteed an easy ride or things that make sense.

But I DO know that as long as I keep my eyes on Jesus, that I can be confident and not fearful! Courage is not something we are born with. In fact, having courage doesn’t mean we won’t feel any fear. Courage is faithfully moving forward IN SPITE of the fear or worry. And my trust in the Lord will allow me to do just that.

Those of you who were participating, please please please, let me know you are here! I want to know your thoughts on Courage and see how the Lord strengthens you in times of fear. Let’s stay on track with this study. We have a lot to learn…

Blessings, ~K