I have spent the better part of 10 minutes trying to figure out how to write a sentence telling you that last night (Thursday) I fell asleep at 8:00. Apparently, my mind considers it a complicated thing to be writing something in the middle of the night that people will be reading under a header dated for the next date. Do I write it past tense? present tense? It makes this woman’s head want to explode.
I think I was passed out before the kid’s lights-out-time. I woke up at 11:00 when Sean came to bed. So now, it is Friday morning, albeit early early morning. I’ve had a hard time falling back to sleep due to my “nap” and also because I’m afraid I may have whatever bug the kids contracted that had them throwing up Wednesday.
Now I am up, brain running, sleep far far away.
I’m thinking of my little baby boy asleep next to me. He is healed from the illness that he had last week.
I’m thinking of my husband, who is healed from his illness that I asked everyone to pray for the other day. I don’t know whether it is is a complete healing or just a healing from this episode, but I am praising the Lord either way.
I’m thinking of my three other sweet children who are asleep comfortably in their beds. They are healed from their stomach ailment and colds.
I’m also thinking about worship, and how the Lord’s love does and/or does not show through me. I’ve been studying the Old Testament tabernacle, via Beth Moore’s “A Woman’s Heart” study. Never before had I realized the significance of the details in the design of the tabernacle. Time and time again, the Lord showed Himself to the Israelites as Holy. And as such, any lack of reverence towards Him is a “strange incense”.
I wonder how many times my actions, or lack of, create an aroma that is not pleasing to the Lord. When I am worshiping Him, am I really worshiping Him with my spirit, or am just caught up in the emotions and the sounds? As I go about my day, are my actions offensive to Him? Or do they create a sweet smell that rises up to Him?
The Lord is Holy. Period. And the only way to approach Him is through Christ. He is our Altar of Sacrifice. And when we accept Him, only then can we approach the altar of incense and worship Him.