Archives for August 2006

Whew!

My posts have been so serious lately – but I’m actually feeling the most joyful that I have felt in a long time!

Exciting news: Fruition Designs is up and running!! There are still some tweaks to be made and it will be a continual work in progress, but at least it is out there. WOOHOO!! (*happy dance*) — one more thing checked off my “to do ” list.

My Daniel bible study is going well! VERY cool. It’s amazing how much I’ve already learned and the first week just covers a handful of verses!

I have some super cute photos of the kids that I need to get on here. Seamus’ personality has really come out and he is so social. The kid cracks me up. He is crawling and is FAST! I can leave him in the family room, run back to our bedroom real quick and turn around and trip over him coming out my bedroom door.

Oh – and did you see this article? Don’t keep secrets on your cell phone! Be sure to take a look at this article.

Oh! Double Oh! — And just because this post isn’t insightful (you, know, I am just so full of insightfulness…) doesn’t mean I don’t have a nugget of bloggity-goodness for you. Please stop by and see this post at BooMamas blog.

Alright – gotta scoot off and take care of the house (although, this is waaaay more fun!)

Blessings,

~K

God Still Provides Manna

The most exciting thing happened on wednesday.

Before I start, let me first give a little back story:

We had the most amazing small bible study group in Maryland. What a fantastic group to know and share, worship and fellowship with. They weren’t just there for you on thursday nights (When we met each week), but helped us move, showered us with gifts when Seamus was born and on and on (plus we had some GOOD EATS everyweek!) When we moved, I knew that this group was what I would miss the most from my daily life.

So, back to wednesday… As most of you know, this past year was brutal. Our move here relieved a lot of the causes. But we’ve still been picking up the pieces slowly. God has given us everything we need. Most weeks, it is just the right amount for in between pay periods – our groceries run out the day Sean gets paid, things come due at the “right time” etc. But this pay period was different. A lot of people have been on vacation at Sean’s work and so he has been sent home early or called off for the entire day a lot. (He worked 52 hours over this past two-week pay period.)

Needless to say, the check is a lot smaller this week and we hadn’t been able to set aside for it (at least in an account we can just go and draw from at anytime). So, wednesday morning, this fact was looking me squarely in the face. I had realized that we had just enough to pay our things due… but, oh, yes – we need food!

As I was getting ready in the morning I just prayed ernestly for the food. I said “Lord, I don’t know how you are going to do it, but you know we need food and that it will need to last for two weeks. Please provide it for us.” Then I let it go.

This was certainly an area requiring faith, because let’s face it – food just doesn’t appear at your doorstep. It’s not like you can postpone it until next pay period. Ya gots ta eat…

I was starting to get ready to pick Abbie up from school when there was a knock at the door. FedEx had a package for me. I opened it up and was blown away by what was inside:

gift cards from our Maryland Bible study group for our local grocery store!!!

Food had arrived on our doorstep. The amount will be no problem taking us through the next two weeks.

Okay – now here is the kicker. I try to call my mom — line’s busy.

Try to call her cell — busy.

Call again — busy, busy busy.

I HAVE to talk with someone!

So I call my brother (who, along with my sister-in-law are a part of the bible study group). I start bawling.

Now, you have to picture my brother — he loves me, I know it, but he is not one who enjoys handling, how shall I describe it, “emotional delicacy”.

So, as I’m crying, I’m sure he is kicking himself for answering the phone (I could just see him with that tense-mouth thing he does when he is not sure what to do or say, possibly banging the phone against his forehead…)

But finally, as I can speak clearly and ask questions, he begins to tell me the story behind the gift cards:

They had been trying to get them to us since May. There was a big mess up with getting the grocery store’s corporate office to get them sent off and it finally got straightened out this week. Just when we needed it. (This totally blows my mind!)

We didn’t need those gift cards before. We would have used them and used the extra cash on something else.

Truly, truly, truly this is manna from Heaven! Isn’t the Lord awesome in His timing. What I know was a frustrating situation on the part of the group was used to reach us when we needed it the most.

So – thank you, my dear, sweet Maryland bible study group. I love you all and we are so truly blessed by your friendship. Thank you for thinking of us.

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Not sure how to transition from that one, but I wanted to also mention that I started Beth Moore’s Daniel bible study Wednesday. I am so excited about this study. The subtitle is Lives of Integrity, Words of Prophecy.
Description from the LifeWay bookstore site:

“Divided into 2 parts, the 1st portion (Daniel 1-6), emphasized by Lives of Integrity, deals with the life of the prophet and is extremely contemporary. Daniel faced pressures and temptations similar to those of a Christian in today’s world. He teaches and models for us how to develop enduring integrity in an enticing world.

The 2nd half (Daniel 7-12), turns to explore the prophecies of Daniel. It deals in-depth with the historical details, predictions, and fulfillments detailing history from the time of Daniel, through the inter-biblical period, the time of Christ, and on to the second coming of Christ.”

I loved her Patriarchs study and this is a great followup. The old testament is so interesting and amazingly relevant to us still.

Abbie’s week has been going well. She comes running out of school so excited every day now.

Have an awesome weekend everyone.
Blessings,

~K


A simple reason for a smile…

Last night, after the kids and I had read story and we were getting ready to say prayers, I mentioned to Abbie that there were a lot of people praying for her and praying that she would have a great kindergarten year. She asked who, and I told her that our sunday school class is praying for her.

She beamed and said “they know me!?”I replied, “no, they don’t all know you, but they know mama and daddy and they know we love you and that you are special.” The look on her face was priceless. You could see her body relax as she absorbed that nugget of truth.

Then I said that we should also pray for the “fancy girl” and Timothy (a boy in her class who gets in trouble every day.)

This afternoon, when I picked her up, she jibber-jabbered away about her day, like she hasn’t done before. As we sat down for a snack I asked how things went on the playground.

Things went well there (check)

and Timothy?

He behaved all day (check, again!)

She looked at me, smiled, and said “It worked!”

Why do we so often forget to pray for the small details? The Lord cares about the detail of our life and hears them. I hope this is a lesson Abbie never forgets.

blessings,
~K

Everyday things… and wanting to rush to my baby’s rescue

Jules at Everyday Mommy has a challenge to take a look at the everyday things and be thankful and appreciative of them. I’ve decided to take up this weekly challenge in order to learn contement in my daily life.

My everyday thing this week is the acorns falling from the trees. Abbie, Quinn and I have spent so much time in the yard looking for them and picking them up. Those simple nuts have brought us together in our quest for the “smallest”, “biggest”, “cutest” nuts around.

On another note – this morning, Abbie broke my heart. She wanted to stay home with me. The fire in her eyes for school was gone… It’s been a long week for her. She has been anxious about lunch — I’m not sure I understand what happened, but she has been bothered since monday that she won’t finish her lunch in time. So I asked her teacher to see if she could make sense of it. Then yesterday, she told Sean that a “fancy girl” on the playground was making fun of her bow and her dress…

*hold me back; let me find that “fancy girl”*

I’ve been struggling with the whole school thing, as it is. Sean and I had planned on homeschooling, but with our move and other issues from last year we thought we’d try this for now…

I’ve been praying for her all morning. Will join me?

tired but learning

I have been so tired the past couple of weeks. Tired, as in, I-need-toothpicks-to-keep-my-eyes propped-open-at-11:00-in-the-morning, kind of tired. The only thing I can come up with is that the medicine that I take daily is causing it. I up-ed my dosage and I think that is when the “tiredness” began… The medicine is my anti-depressant (there, that’s out in the open) and I was splitting the pill in half. But, I started having panic-attacks again and so I stopped splitting the pill. Now I am tired. It doesn’t matter if I get 10 hours of sleep or 6 or take a nap…

So… for now my options are panic attacks OR total and utter exhaustion. (I choose the latter until I can get this corrected, ’cause those attacks are NOT fun!!)

I’ve been considering fasting for healing of my attacks. It’s hard to talk about them because I know what I thought about panic attacks before I had them myself and I never realized that they were a big deal. I just thought that they happened ’cause the person got excited and anxious about something and my image was of someone just acting hyper (like they just stood there going “oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh…!!!!)

Let me tell you — that is not how they happen. They are physically draining and sometimes I don’t want to leave the house because I am afraid I will be somewhere and one will strike and I will be unable to get to my quiet spot by myself.

So, I am learning to rely on the Lord for this. I’ve always turned to Him in the midst of the attack, but I am learning that I need to rely on Him for preventing them. I need His peace. Fear is not of the Lord. He does not want me to be a prisoner of these attacks. I know He wants me to be free from them. I also know that saTan will jump all over that weakness if he even thinks he has an “in” for causing me suffering.

In fact, I never had these attacks until I started really growing in God’s word. I wasn’t much of a threat to saTan before. But as I grow in my relationship with the Lord, satan will try to make me stumble so that I am a weak or poor witness (or make me think that I am a weak or poor witness; which is something I struggled with when I first had my attacks. Thoughts like “have you REALLY turned it over to the Lord?” and “am I really trusting in the Lord?” have plagued me as I ‘ve struggled with these attacks.)

Maybe the Lord’s way of healing me is through my medicine. Maybe He will completely take away my need for it. I don’t know. But I do know that no matter how He chooses to do it, it is the best way.

blessings,
~K